Tag: suicide

• Numb little bug

  I told my friends I was struggling on Facebook (I’m very dramatic, God bless me) and that I was suicidal. I did it 1) so that if I went through with killing myself, at least the people I love had a heads up and 2) in case anyone else felt suicidal, they’d know they weren’t…

  janetdthomas77

  May 3, 2022

  anxiety, death, depression, Fears, fed up, Grieving, identity, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, Suicidalideations, suicide

  anxiety, depression, grief, icantbreathe, Icantgoon, Icantmoveforward, ijustwanttodieplease, Life, mental illness, suicidalandthatsok, suicide, temptedbysuicide

• What do I want?

  It’s not often I ask myself what I want because I’m normally busy trying to look after everyone else. No one expects that of me and when I think about it in objective terms, very few people in my life ask me to care for them, but I expect it of myself. I expect 5-star…

  janetdthomas77

  December 4, 2021

  Uncategorized

  anxiety, depression, givingup, grief, mental illness, suicide

• My week in a fancy psych ward

  I completed 7 full days. I asked – in great trauma and distress – on the 7th day to be released to go home as I was the most suicidal and out of control I’ve been in years and it was due to the treatment I received in hospital. First let’s do the pros and…

  janetdthomas77

  October 4, 2021

  depression, Fears, Grieving, Group Therapy, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, suicide

  99problems, advice, afraid, anxiety, anxious, betrayal, I need hep, listen to me, mental illness, mental illness awareness, no help, psychward, suicidal thoughts, suicide

• I’ve been admitted to a Private psych ward

  I’ve been in so much mental anguish for so long that I knew I had to reach out for help. I asked my Doctor to write me a referral to 4 of the Private Psych Hospitals here in Perth and God made a way because I got admitted to HC yesterday afternoon. I shook as…

  janetdthomas77

  September 25, 2021

  anxiety, depression, Fears, grief, Grieving, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, rest, self help, self love

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• Making hard choices

  February 07, 2020 I’m the one responsible for my life and 98% of me wants it just to end. I just want to stop. Please. I think the last few months have really battered me. What’s killing me now is pure exhaustion. I haven’t stopped. I’ve moved from job to job to job – taking…

  janetdthomas77

  May 10, 2021

  depression, Fears, Illness, Life, mental illness, suicide

  depression, mental illness, severe depression, suicidal thoughts, suicide

• One step…then another

  July 12, 2017 I live my life on the edge of a knife. I live it second to second now – hanging onto life with my very fingernails, wondering if right now is going to be when the grief of being me kills me – or will I live another second? I put one foot…in front of…

  janetdthomas77

  April 25, 2021

  family, Fears, Life, mental illness, Relationships, suicide

  depression, mental illness, suicide

• The middle of the road

  July 07, 2017 So. Since Tuesday, I’ve been home. When Alun and I left Dr D’s on Tuesday morning, she signed me a Medical Certificate for the next 2 weeks. I’m stressing about every second I’m not at work. Because they’re not going to ‘wait’ for me to get better. They’re not going to hold…

  janetdthomas77

  April 25, 2021

  family, Fears, Life, mental illness, Relationships, suicide

  anxiety, depression, mental illness, suicide

• One step at a time

  April 02, 2017 I love action movies. I love the thought of heroes and doing good for people who need help. That’s probably why I watch a lot of movies. Some of my favourite movies – are the ones with the “Avengers” in them. Of course, “Tony Stark” (played by the gorgeous Robert Downey Jr)…

  janetdthomas77

  April 24, 2021

  Fears, Life, mental illness, suicide

  depression, mental illness, struggling, suicide

• Knock knock

  January 30, 2017 Icame home from work today and felt exhausted. Every hour at work felt like it took 3 hours to pass. I had to plaster on a brave face and greet everyone with a bright smile. I went to the bathroom 3 times during my shift at work; shutting the cubicle door behind…

  janetdthomas77

  April 24, 2021

  family, Favouritism, Fears, Friends, Life, love, mental illness, Relationships, suicide

  dark thoughts, Friends, mental illness, old friends, suicide

• Can’t trust me

  I’m in a great job, working good hours with a bunch of staff who are really happy people. I have an amazing husband who’s gorgeous, kind and smart and a circle of friends who believe in me, support me and care about me. So why do I stand on the very edge of the platform…

  janetdthomas77

  February 10, 2021

  Life, suicide, Uncategorized

  anxiety, depression, Feeling Alone, mental illness, suicide