Tag: struggling

• Still here

  Yesterday I called in “sick” to work. I feel bad about it because I wasn’t sick, I was fed up, overwhelmed and burnt out. I don’t know if that would have been acceptable to call in with, so I went with “a migraine” which was accepted without question. Hmm. I also emailed my Psychiatrist’s secretary […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 18, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Fears, fed up, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, panic attacks

  99problems, aching, afraid, anxiety, anxious, depression, mental illness, struggling

• I feel like this #struggling

  janetdthomas77

  May 7, 2022

  depression, Fears, fed up, Illness, mental illness, panic attacks

  anxiety, anxious, arghh, struggling

• Obligated

  

  I feel the weight of responsibility on my shoulders and OMG IT IS PAINFUL. It’s too heavy! IT’S JUST TOO FUCKING HEAVY!!! This is what I’m carrying: Responsibility for my Mom since my Dad passed away and THEY SPENT ALL THEIR FUCKING MONEY in 2 years. ALL OF IT. I just don’t understand!!! (Or maybe […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 2, 2022

  anxiety, death, depression, family, Family Obligations, Fears, identity, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, money, panic attacks, Suicidalideations, suicide

  cantgoon, heavyweight, notsustainable, Obligations, responsibilitiesarekillingme, SOS, struggling, suicidal, suicidelooksmightyfinerightnow

• I’ve been admitted to a Private psych ward

  I’ve been in so much mental anguish for so long that I knew I had to reach out for help. I asked my Doctor to write me a referral to 4 of the Private Psych Hospitals here in Perth and God made a way because I got admitted to HC yesterday afternoon. I shook as […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 25, 2021

  anxiety, depression, Fears, grief, Grieving, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, rest, self help, self love

  afraid, anxiety, anxious, bereavement, blessings, Dad, DadDied, dark thoughts, days off, depression, fatigued, fear, fed up, Feeling Alone, grateful, grief, Grieving, Hospital visit, hurting, lossofDad, LossofFamilyMember, mental illness, mental illness awareness, mentalhealth, myownadvocate, panicattacks, profoundhurt, psychward, recharge, recovery, reset, Resilience, rest, self heal, severe depression, social anxiety, stayorgo, stress, struggles, struggling, suffering, suicidal thoughts, suicide, taking chances, timebymyself, toughchoices

• Broken

  October 10, 2019 Yesterday, I sat in a window alcove on one of the busiest streets in the city and cried. I didn’t just cry, by the way – I wailed. I howled. Tears didn’t fall daintily down my cheeks – they poured. I didn’t care. This is me at my lowest point. I have just […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 5, 2021

  abuse, anxiety, Fears, Friends, Illness, Life, panic attacks, Relationships, rest, suicide

  stalker, struggling, suicidal thoughts, tooheavy, toomuch, underpressure, unhappy

• Waves

  March 04, 2019 I don’t remember how old I was – maybe 13? My family and I were in America and I think we were in Florida. There was a huge pool and Jay and I were splashing about in it, having fun. Suddenly, these alarms started going off and people in the pool were […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 3, 2021

  anxiety, Fears, Illness, Life, mental illness, panic attacks

  depression, drowning, mental illness, mental illness awareness, struggling, waves

• One step at a time

  April 02, 2017 I love action movies. I love the thought of heroes and doing good for people who need help. That’s probably why I watch a lot of movies. Some of my favourite movies – are the ones with the “Avengers” in them. Of course, “Tony Stark” (played by the gorgeous Robert Downey Jr) […]

  janetdthomas77

  April 24, 2021

  Fears, Life, mental illness, suicide

  depression, mental illness, struggling, suicide