Tag: painful

• 4 Policemen, 2 Ambulance officers, flashing lights…and a tearful husband.

  I’m struggling, guys. I’m really struggling. I don’t feel anything apart from grief, loss, rage, confusion and a profound hurt that has sunk into the marrow of my bones and physically makes my body ache. Alun won’t believe me and if I talked to a friend about how I’m feeling, I’m so scared I’ll burden…

  janetdthomas77

  September 21, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Family Obligations, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss, marriage, siblings, Welfarecheck

  aching, afraid, ambulance, anxious, Burnt out, cantcope, cantgoon, cantmoveforward, conflict, DadisDead, dark thoughts, DealingwithDeath, emotional, FamilyDynamics, fatigued, Fears, GodIneedyou, grief, Grieving, hospital, Hospital visit, hurting, husband, Icantgoon, Icantmoveforward, lessons, limits, maritalproblems, marriageconcerns, notsustainable, Obligations, overwhelmed, painful, panicattacks, pleasehelpme, Police

• The Girl before

  I used to be her. Bubbly. Full of life. A mischevious laugh. A big – yet charming – flirt with guys and a best friend to all girls; especially to the shy introvert. I couldn’t help but adopt them. I was an extrovert – loud, brash, mouthy, cheeky and filled with rainbows, forest green glitter…

  janetdthomas77

  September 11, 2022

  anxiety, death, depression, grief, happy memories, Humour, identity, Illness, Life, loss, love, mental illness, Mindfulness

  canweevergoback, changedforever, Life, memories, mental illness, nostalgia, painful, Relationships, thegirlafter, thegirlbefore

• Shhh…

  I’m an emotional girl, God bless me. So when I get hurt…oh it feels like my whole world has fallen apart. This latest episode of “Drama in the life of Janet” with Craig taking a load of money from me has really wound me up. I’m still reeling from it. I get all in my…

  janetdthomas77

  July 1, 2022

  abuse, bullies, coercive control, Fears, identity, Illness, loss, mental illness

  abuse, coercive control, financialdespair, forced, friendsarekindnotcruel, lessons, money, notafriend, painful

• The Mountain I carry

  

  What is your first ever memory? Was it happy? (I pray that it was). I have blurry, far-away memories – as if I’m seeing them underwater and all the sounds and sights are fuzzy and not quite clear enough to be definite… I think I remember the hut I grew up in – in the…

  janetdthomas77

  June 3, 2022

  anxiety, bullies, depression, family, Favouritism, Fears, identity, Life, Relationships, worth

  Favouritism, Life, painful, themountainIcarry, unfavourite, worthless

• Grief

  Grief doesn’t knock.

  janetdthomas77

  February 25, 2022

  death, family, grief, Grieving, loss

  Dad, family, Greiving, grief, Griefdoesntknock, hurting, lossofaparent, painful, PleaseBringMyDadBack