Tag: grief

• 4 Policemen, 2 Ambulance officers, flashing lights…and a tearful husband.

  I’m struggling, guys. I’m really struggling. I don’t feel anything apart from grief, loss, rage, confusion and a profound hurt that has sunk into the marrow of my bones and physically makes my body ache. Alun won’t believe me and if I talked to a friend about how I’m feeling, I’m so scared I’ll burden […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 21, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Family Obligations, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss, marriage, siblings, Welfarecheck

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• Father’s day

  I miss my Dad every single day. Holidays like today – Father’s day – multiplies the grief tenfold. I’m hurting so much that my bones ache. Last year was my 1st Father’s day without Dad. I made myself go to his favourite pub in the city, ordered a glass of lemon, lime and bitters and […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 4, 2022

  death, depression, family, grief, Grieving, Holidays, loss

  DadDied, FathersDay, grief, Griefdoesntknock, Grieving, MissyouDad

• For Shanti…a shining star in a dark storm

  As writers, we live lonely lives. We write and we try to share our hearts on paper (or in these times of modernity online) but there is always that fear – that worry – firstly of “Is anyone going to read this?”, then the anxious thoughts of of “Will they like it?” when really we […]

  janetdthomas77

  August 21, 2022

  Author life, books, family, Fears, food, Friends, grief, Grieving, happy memories, identity, Illness, kindness, Life, loss, love, Relationships, Work, worth

  bloggers, bloggingcommunity, Dad, family, friendship, grief, Life, supporteachother

• Surviving parent guilt

  Since my Dad died, I’ve come across new things. Like crippling grief. Grief that looks and feels like 80 feet waves pummelling me, tumbling me, confusing and frightening me. Grief like that. Grief that – like waves – doesn’t let you come up for air. It doesn’t stop for a second so you can’t stop. […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 10, 2022

  anxiety, death, family, Family Obligations, grief, Grieving, loss, money, Relationships, Work

  family, grief, GriefsFirsts, guilty, killingme, survivingparentguilt, wavesthatdontstop

• I’ve got you, Mom xx

  janetdthomas77

  June 6, 2022

  family, Family Obligations, Grieving, Life, loss, money

  Dad, grief, GriefsFirsts, hatethesefuckinganniversaries, loss, lossofaparent, miss my Dad

• It’s been a year since you went away

  Hey Dad, Ed Sheeran has a song out called “Visiting hours” where he wants to go and see his Mom in Heaven. I’ve had it on repeat all day as tears have flowed down my face. I never thought I’d be able to relate to losing a parent and yet here we are. I close […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 4, 2022

  Author life, books, death, depression, family, grief, Grieving, happy memories, loss, Relationships

  Dad, family, grief, grievingbadly, hatethesefuckinganniversaries, lossofaparent, MissyouDad

• My Dad’s birthday 🎂

  janetdthomas77

  May 16, 2022

  death, family, grief, Grieving, happy memories, Uncategorized

  Dad, Dad and Daughter, grief, GriefsFirsts, hurting, loss, lossofaparent, sopainful

• Numb little bug

  I told my friends I was struggling on Facebook (I’m very dramatic, God bless me) and that I was suicidal. I did it 1) so that if I went through with killing myself, at least the people I love had a heads up and 2) in case anyone else felt suicidal, they’d know they weren’t […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 3, 2022

  anxiety, death, depression, Fears, fed up, Grieving, identity, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, Suicidalideations, suicide

  anxiety, depression, grief, icantbreathe, Icantgoon, Icantmoveforward, ijustwanttodieplease, Life, mental illness, suicidalandthatsok, suicide, temptedbysuicide

• Knock Knock. Who’s there? The Police.

  Ethel you’ve gone TOO FUCKING FAR now.

  janetdthomas77

  April 25, 2022

  abuse, anxiety, bullies, depression, Fears, grief, Grieving, Illness, mental illness, Police, suicide, Welfarecheck

  anxiety, bullies, bully, depression, ethelyoufucker, grief, loss, mental illness, mentalhealth, Police, Welfarecheck

• Coming to understand Grief

  Grief…you are not welcome here.

  janetdthomas77

  April 15, 2022

  death, depression, family, Fears, grief, Grieving, loss

  Dad, Dads, family, grief, Life, loss, LossofFamilyMember, lossofparent, mental illness