Tag: depression

• Dangerous Territory

  Full disclosure guys, (maybe you’ve even already read about it so it won’t come as a surprise to you) I USED TO BE A STALKER. Something I’m deeply ashamed of and given the choice, I keep under wraps and try not to bring up/talk about. It was a dark, confusing time in my life and […]

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  October 30, 2022

  addiction, anxiety, Facts are facts, Fears, hospital, identity, Illness, Jealousy, Life, loss, obsessed, Relationships, sex, stalking

  anxiety, depression, Life, mental illness, obsession, stalker, stalking

• HOW IS THIS OK?!?

  Yesterday was a really, really hard day. I was climbing the walls in an extremely high state of distress and no matter how many times I waited to be seen at the Nurses station, asked for help, got told “yes, in a minute – go back to your room and put some mindfulness and distress […]

  janetdthomas77

  October 10, 2022

  abuse, addiction, anxiety, Burnt out, death, depression, Friends, grief, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, rest, self help

  anxiety, depression, grief, Life, mental illness, sucidalAF, thisclosetodying

• Plan B

  Today I’m fortifying my castle walls and to protect myself as I rebuild, I’m not going to interact with anyone if I can help it. I’m going to stay in my room all day so that no one can talk to me. Yesterday really traumatised me and I’m not sure how to recover from it […]

  janetdthomas77

  October 9, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, communication, depression, Fears, fed up, Grieving, Protecting myself

  anxiety, depression, mental illness, protectmyheart, psychward, stayalone, staysafe

• “I can take it”

  

  I want to help whenever I see someone hurting. I can’t seem to help but want to go over to them, put an arm around them or automatically lift up the other end of whatever huge burden they’re pulling along behind them so that between us, the burden won’t be as heavy on that person. […]

  janetdthomas77

  October 8, 2022

  abuse, addiction, alcohol, anxiety, bullies, coercive control, death, depression, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss

  anxiety, aroughday, burdenened, depression, family, grief, hospital, mental illness, psychpatientsshouldcomewithawarning, psychward, traumatised, triggerwarning

• 30 questions with JD :)

  Totes copying from an awesome blog by one of my favourite bloggers “Frog Machinery” where he interviews himself and gave us all insight into who he is as a person. In true Janet fashion, I like his idea and want to do the same. I’ll put the kettle on, you get comfortable. Let’s go! When […]

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  June 13, 2022

  Author life, books, family, Fears, food, Friends, gardening, grief, happy memories, helptheHomeless, Humour, identity, Illness, Life, loss, love, mental illness, Mindfulness, relationship advice

  30questions, anxiety, askme, authorlife, depression, Life, Relationships, writerslife

• Just…do what you can.

  

  Depression is an insidious bastard. I’m caught up in it’s awful, sticky grip right now and it makes very simple things suddenly very difficult. Like showering. Showering means I have to take off my clothes. All of them. Already I am overwhelmed at the thought of undressing. It already feels like too much to have […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 9, 2022

  Burnt out, depression, fed up, identity, Illness, Life, rest, self help, self love

  cantcope, depression, Life, mental illness, toohard, toomuch, toopainful

• Still here

  Yesterday I called in “sick” to work. I feel bad about it because I wasn’t sick, I was fed up, overwhelmed and burnt out. I don’t know if that would have been acceptable to call in with, so I went with “a migraine” which was accepted without question. Hmm. I also emailed my Psychiatrist’s secretary […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 18, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Fears, fed up, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, panic attacks

  99problems, aching, afraid, anxiety, anxious, depression, mental illness, struggling

• Numb little bug

  I told my friends I was struggling on Facebook (I’m very dramatic, God bless me) and that I was suicidal. I did it 1) so that if I went through with killing myself, at least the people I love had a heads up and 2) in case anyone else felt suicidal, they’d know they weren’t […]

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  May 3, 2022

  anxiety, death, depression, Fears, fed up, Grieving, identity, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, Suicidalideations, suicide

  anxiety, depression, grief, icantbreathe, Icantgoon, Icantmoveforward, ijustwanttodieplease, Life, mental illness, suicidalandthatsok, suicide, temptedbysuicide

• A happy memory

  When I told Jon I wanted a divorce, he left our house that night and moved back in with his family. Jon was surrounded by an entire, loving family while I paced up and down in the living room on my own for months afterwards. The first few days after Jon had left, the electricity […]

  janetdthomas77

  April 29, 2022

  anxiety, cheating, depression, divorce, family, Fears, Friends, Grieving, happy memories, Illness, kindness, Life, loss, love, rest

  anapwillfixalot, anxiety, depression, friendship, friendswillliftyouup, goodfriends, Life, mental illness, Relationships, sleepisnecessary, sleepisvital, thankfulforfriends

• Facts are facts

  The worst thing about suffering with mental illness is that you can’t trust yourself. You live in a constant state of gaslighting yourself “did that really happen or did I imagine it?”. It is the worst thing to suffer from – not being able to trust your own thoughts. When I’m in the depths of […]

  janetdthomas77

  April 29, 2022

  anxiety, bullies, communication, depression, divorce, Facts are facts, Fears, Friends, grief, identity, Illness, Life, mental illness, Police

  anxiety, depression, factsarefacts, Fears, Life, mental illness, mentalhealth, Relationships