Tag: dark thoughts

• 4 Policemen, 2 Ambulance officers, flashing lights…and a tearful husband.

  I’m struggling, guys. I’m really struggling. I don’t feel anything apart from grief, loss, rage, confusion and a profound hurt that has sunk into the marrow of my bones and physically makes my body ache. Alun won’t believe me and if I talked to a friend about how I’m feeling, I’m so scared I’ll burden…

  janetdthomas77

  September 21, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Family Obligations, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss, marriage, siblings, Welfarecheck

  aching, afraid, ambulance, anxious, Burnt out, cantcope, cantgoon, cantmoveforward, conflict, DadisDead, dark thoughts, DealingwithDeath, emotional, FamilyDynamics, fatigued, Fears, GodIneedyou, grief, Grieving, hospital, Hospital visit, hurting, husband, Icantgoon, Icantmoveforward, lessons, limits, maritalproblems, marriageconcerns, notsustainable, Obligations, overwhelmed, painful, panicattacks, pleasehelpme, Police

• What could have been

  I’ve seen the same guy on the train for the last few days and he looks a lot like my friend Troy. He’s always on his phone and wears a brown jacket and dark grey jeans. I wonder where he goes? Maybe to work? He must be a creature of habit like me because we…

  janetdthomas77

  August 25, 2022

  addiction, grief, hospital, identity, Illness, mental illness, Relationships

  addictedtosugarandsalt, backstory, conflict, dark thoughts, dating, decisions, destruction, foodaddictions, friendsarekindnotcruel, friendsarelife, friendship, friendshipistwoways, friendswillliftyouup, good memories, Health, hospital, Hospital visit, intruder, losing a friend, lostalovedone, mental illness, mental illness awareness, mentalhealth, narrative, notafriend

• I’ve been admitted to a Private psych ward

  I’ve been in so much mental anguish for so long that I knew I had to reach out for help. I asked my Doctor to write me a referral to 4 of the Private Psych Hospitals here in Perth and God made a way because I got admitted to HC yesterday afternoon. I shook as…

  janetdthomas77

  September 25, 2021

  anxiety, depression, Fears, grief, Grieving, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, rest, self help, self love

  afraid, anxiety, anxious, bereavement, blessings, Dad, DadDied, dark thoughts, days off, depression, fatigued, fear, fed up, Feeling Alone, grateful, grief, Grieving, Hospital visit, hurting, lossofDad, LossofFamilyMember, mental illness, mental illness awareness, mentalhealth, myownadvocate, panicattacks, profoundhurt, psychward, recharge, recovery, reset, Resilience, rest, self heal, severe depression, social anxiety, stayorgo, stress, struggles, struggling, suffering, suicidal thoughts, suicide, taking chances, timebymyself, toughchoices

• Hurting

  

  Oh My God This is painful, Lord. Losing my Dad is the most painful thing I have ever experienced And it’s ongoing. That’s the kicker. It doesn’t end. It shows you NO hope of letting up. My Dad 😭 My Dad is gone. Losing my Dad is like losing the marrow from my very bones.…

  janetdthomas77

  July 20, 2021

  death, family, Fears, grief, Grieving, loss, Relationships

  arghh, bereavement, Dad, Dad and Daughter, DadDied, DadisDead, Dads, dark thoughts, DealingwithDeath, dearDad, disbelief, drowning, FamilyDynamics, Fathers, Godhelpme, GodIneedyou, grief, Grieving, heart, heartache, help, helpme, loss, lossofDad, LossofFamilyMember, lost, lostalovedone

• Knock knock

  January 30, 2017 Icame home from work today and felt exhausted. Every hour at work felt like it took 3 hours to pass. I had to plaster on a brave face and greet everyone with a bright smile. I went to the bathroom 3 times during my shift at work; shutting the cubicle door behind…

  janetdthomas77

  April 24, 2021

  family, Favouritism, Fears, Friends, Life, love, mental illness, Relationships, suicide

  dark thoughts, Friends, mental illness, old friends, suicide