Tag: afraid

• The Stanford County Jail/Prison “experiment”

  I heard about it a few years ago. I think YouTube recommended it to me. Hmm. If you haven’t heard about it, it was a “psychology experiment” of power and the abuse of it, given the opportunity to do so and get away with it, run by a Psychiatrist in the 70’s. It was supposed…

  janetdthomas77

  September 23, 2022

  abuse, bullies, coercive control, Illness, kindness, mental illness, Mindfulness, narcissist, Police, Uncategorized

  99problems, abused, afraid, distress, integrity, makegoodchoices, power, psychological

• 4 Policemen, 2 Ambulance officers, flashing lights…and a tearful husband.

  I’m struggling, guys. I’m really struggling. I don’t feel anything apart from grief, loss, rage, confusion and a profound hurt that has sunk into the marrow of my bones and physically makes my body ache. Alun won’t believe me and if I talked to a friend about how I’m feeling, I’m so scared I’ll burden…

  janetdthomas77

  September 21, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Family Obligations, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss, marriage, siblings, Welfarecheck

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• Hospital, brain bleed, high blood pressure and angry rant

  It started at about 10pm on Tuesday night. A migraine. If you’ve never had one before, it feels literally like your head is in a vice and someone evil is tightening that vice. The pain is excruciating. I did the usual things, drank a litre of water, took pain tablets, laid as still as I…

  janetdthomas77

  September 18, 2022

  hospital, Illness, loss, mental illness

  99problems, admitted, afraid, ambulance, bloodtests, Hospital visit, killer migraines, lumbarpuncture, needles, unwell

• Still here

  Yesterday I called in “sick” to work. I feel bad about it because I wasn’t sick, I was fed up, overwhelmed and burnt out. I don’t know if that would have been acceptable to call in with, so I went with “a migraine” which was accepted without question. Hmm. I also emailed my Psychiatrist’s secretary…

  janetdthomas77

  May 18, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Fears, fed up, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, panic attacks

  99problems, aching, afraid, anxiety, anxious, depression, mental illness, struggling

• My week in a fancy psych ward

  I completed 7 full days. I asked – in great trauma and distress – on the 7th day to be released to go home as I was the most suicidal and out of control I’ve been in years and it was due to the treatment I received in hospital. First let’s do the pros and…

  janetdthomas77

  October 4, 2021

  depression, Fears, Grieving, Group Therapy, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, suicide

  99problems, advice, afraid, anxiety, anxious, betrayal, I need hep, listen to me, mental illness, mental illness awareness, no help, psychward, suicidal thoughts, suicide

• I’ve been admitted to a Private psych ward

  I’ve been in so much mental anguish for so long that I knew I had to reach out for help. I asked my Doctor to write me a referral to 4 of the Private Psych Hospitals here in Perth and God made a way because I got admitted to HC yesterday afternoon. I shook as…

  janetdthomas77

  September 25, 2021

  anxiety, depression, Fears, grief, Grieving, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, rest, self help, self love

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