Tag: aching

• 4 Policemen, 2 Ambulance officers, flashing lights…and a tearful husband.

  I’m struggling, guys. I’m really struggling. I don’t feel anything apart from grief, loss, rage, confusion and a profound hurt that has sunk into the marrow of my bones and physically makes my body ache. Alun won’t believe me and if I talked to a friend about how I’m feeling, I’m so scared I’ll burden…

  janetdthomas77

  September 21, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Family Obligations, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss, marriage, siblings, Welfarecheck

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• There’s no substitute for compassion

  The latest thing out there right now is all about “manifesting” goodness, wealth, health, happiness etc into your own life. “If you believe it…you will achieve it“ Sorry, (not really) but that’s utter bullsh*t. Believing and – for the love of God – manifesting *shudder* good things can only get you so far. I think…

  janetdthomas77

  June 17, 2022

  Burnt out, Family Obligations, fed up, manifesting

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• Unfavourite

  As I was writing my Memoir, I was gaslighting myself! Was your childhood really that bad, JD – or did you dramatise it? I actually took to YouTube of all places, to find out how other people have been affected by knowing their parents favoured their sibling over them. One girl commented “if my Mother…

  janetdthomas77

  May 20, 2022

  Author life, family, Family Obligations, Favouritism, goals, identity, Life, loss, Relationships, siblings, worth, writing

  99problems, aching, advice, anxiety, assertyourself, author, Author struggles, authorsLife, buddingwriter, FamilyDynamics, gaslighting

• Still here

  Yesterday I called in “sick” to work. I feel bad about it because I wasn’t sick, I was fed up, overwhelmed and burnt out. I don’t know if that would have been acceptable to call in with, so I went with “a migraine” which was accepted without question. Hmm. I also emailed my Psychiatrist’s secretary…

  janetdthomas77

  May 18, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Fears, fed up, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, panic attacks

  99problems, aching, afraid, anxiety, anxious, depression, mental illness, struggling

• Happy memories with my Dad

  janetdthomas77

  December 16, 2021

  death, family, Fears, grief, Grieving, Life, loss, love, Relationships

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• Things too painful to speak of

  

  This is one of the most painful and one of the BEST blogs I have EVER written.

  janetdthomas77

  July 27, 2021

  death, family, Favouritism, Fears, grief, Grieving, Life, loss, love, Relationships

  aching, breachingagap, brotherandsister, crossingoceans, grief, hurt, phonecallswithsiblings, profoundhurt, siblingrelationships, siblingrivalry, siblings, sorry, strainedrelationships, wilderness, youngerbrother