Tag: 99problems

• The Stanford County Jail/Prison “experiment”

  I heard about it a few years ago. I think YouTube recommended it to me. Hmm. If you haven’t heard about it, it was a “psychology experiment” of power and the abuse of it, given the opportunity to do so and get away with it, run by a Psychiatrist in the 70’s. It was supposed […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 23, 2022

  abuse, bullies, coercive control, Illness, kindness, mental illness, Mindfulness, narcissist, Police, Uncategorized

  99problems, abused, afraid, distress, integrity, makegoodchoices, power, psychological

• Hospital, brain bleed, high blood pressure and angry rant

  It started at about 10pm on Tuesday night. A migraine. If you’ve never had one before, it feels literally like your head is in a vice and someone evil is tightening that vice. The pain is excruciating. I did the usual things, drank a litre of water, took pain tablets, laid as still as I […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 18, 2022

  hospital, Illness, loss, mental illness

  99problems, admitted, afraid, ambulance, bloodtests, Hospital visit, killer migraines, lumbarpuncture, needles, unwell

• The Camilla diet

  Disclaimer: “Camilla” (name changed to keep her protected) is a woman at my work who seems really, really lovely. She’s polite, friendly, sweet and works hard. When you read my following comments and observations about her in this blog, they are really observations and concerns aimed at me. Not Camilla. This is how I see […]

  janetdthomas77

  July 6, 2022

  food, Life, Mindfulness, Work

  99problems, addictedtosugarandsalt, doppelganger, fat, overweight, twin

• There’s no substitute for compassion

  The latest thing out there right now is all about “manifesting” goodness, wealth, health, happiness etc into your own life. “If you believe it…you will achieve it“ Sorry, (not really) but that’s utter bullsh*t. Believing and – for the love of God – manifesting *shudder* good things can only get you so far. I think […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 17, 2022

  Burnt out, Family Obligations, fed up, manifesting

  99problems, aching, advice, anxious, bad advice, bekind, betrayed, Bollocks, burntout, cantcope, cantgoon, cantmoveforward, choosewordswisely, crossingoceans, disbelief, disgusted, don't be rude, encouragement, exhausted, family, fatigued, manifesting

• Unfavourite

  As I was writing my Memoir, I was gaslighting myself! Was your childhood really that bad, JD – or did you dramatise it? I actually took to YouTube of all places, to find out how other people have been affected by knowing their parents favoured their sibling over them. One girl commented “if my Mother […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 20, 2022

  Author life, family, Family Obligations, Favouritism, goals, identity, Life, loss, Relationships, siblings, worth, writing

  99problems, aching, advice, anxiety, assertyourself, author, Author struggles, authorsLife, buddingwriter, FamilyDynamics, gaslighting

• Still here

  Yesterday I called in “sick” to work. I feel bad about it because I wasn’t sick, I was fed up, overwhelmed and burnt out. I don’t know if that would have been acceptable to call in with, so I went with “a migraine” which was accepted without question. Hmm. I also emailed my Psychiatrist’s secretary […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 18, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Fears, fed up, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, panic attacks

  99problems, aching, afraid, anxiety, anxious, depression, mental illness, struggling

• My week in a fancy psych ward

  I completed 7 full days. I asked – in great trauma and distress – on the 7th day to be released to go home as I was the most suicidal and out of control I’ve been in years and it was due to the treatment I received in hospital. First let’s do the pros and […]

  janetdthomas77

  October 4, 2021

  depression, Fears, Grieving, Group Therapy, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, suicide

  99problems, advice, afraid, anxiety, anxious, betrayal, I need hep, listen to me, mental illness, mental illness awareness, no help, psychward, suicidal thoughts, suicide