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Me all day: OMG the beach is calling to me. Pure Moana viiiiibes. Yass!!! I pack my beach bag. Towel, water, sunscreen, book I’ve been wanting to read for ages, thongs, bathers on with shorts and a cute summer top. Yass!!! Just as I reach for my bag to leave…it lands. Thump. A heavy weightContinue reading “The Beach”

Oh my word, I’ve lost count of the amount of times I’ve wanted to blog and tell you something. I wanted to write about the dappled light between the leaves of the super tall Karri trees as Alun and I drove through the Forest in Pemberton, about the wildflowers that bloom everywhere throughout the ForestContinue reading “Fight, Flight, Freeze…or Fun”

I’ve been wanting to write and catch you up on what the “life of Janet” has been like lately but I haven’t had the motivation or creativity required. For that, I’m sorry. But I’m here now 🙂 Here’s what’s been going on: Life as I know it has been really, really hard. Depression has gottenContinue reading “So much to catch you up on”

All I wanted for FIVE LONG DAYS was a letter from my psychiatrist saying I was not a nutcase and was able to make rational decisions in court. My Lawyers demand it before they will help me prepare for Trial on Wednesdsay. Given that NO ONE works on weekends, I have FOUR DAYS now toContinue reading “On the edge”

I’ve been in hospital almost a week now. I’m fed up. I want to go home. I’m scared out of my mind, anxious, FURIOUS, exhausted and sick to death of f**king “group therapy” which is a complete f**king waste of time, yet it takes up most of my days. My “therapist” has only seen meContinue reading “This is it, then.”

How do I move on when I’VE been the toxic one?

Getting up from the very bottom of this dark, dank pit is really, really hard. But I’m trying, and that’s enough. I’ve called a few job agencies and let them know I’m available for work (am I, though?) I’m here. I’m still alive. I’d HONESTLY RATHER NOT BE, but there you go. Everything I thoughtContinue reading “Painfully getting back UP”

The past few weeks have been too much for me. Just TOO MUCH. Too much hurt and shame. Too much grief. Too much depression and too much anxiety. On Sunday around lunchtime, Alun got a reminder on his phone about his friend’s birthday party. It wasn’t going to start until 3pm but Alun wanted toContinue reading “My whole world has fallen apart.”

I’m usually very quiet. I’m polite. I’m gently spoken and I try to promote kindness and peace wherever I go. But today? TODAY EVERYBODY CAN GET FUCKED. I mean that with every fibre of my being. I hate this stupid fucking world. I hate my life. I hate how I try my best to loveContinue reading “Raging”

I’m spent, guys. I can’t go on. “Basil” fired me unjustly, “Natalie” impersonated me, the Pest control man I hired today to remove dead rats that were fermenting in our ceiling and causing our house (bedroom especially) to smell so bad I want to throw up all the time STOMPED A HOLE THROUGH OUR CEILINGContinue reading “Suicidal”