I’m not there yet…not as bad as I was in June 2017…but I’m close. Because I feel like I’m crawling through life on my hand and knees. I heard someone describe depression once as “a video game – we are all in a video game and everyone has been given instructions and are starting onContinue reading “On my hands and knees, struggling”
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Anxiety has physical effects
In the worst times, anxiety is crippling. It will stop you dead in the street, squeeze your lungs and make it feel like you are literally dying. Other times like today, it manifests in sweaty hands, a racing heart and my entire body shakes. My concern is that I was responding as if someone wasContinue reading “Anxiety has physical effects”
Seeing Jesus…and other things
Well hello there bloggers 🙂 How are you? Nothing much to report today, other than feeling so so so so tired. Like, right down to my very bones. I’ll tell you about Jesus…because I think I saw him today. Yep. I was crossing the overpass between Murray and Hay street – the one over theContinue reading “Seeing Jesus…and other things”
An open letter about Suicide
I’m watching a great series on Netflix right now – called “13 reasons why“. I read the book first and didn’t hold high hopes for the series because I feel like once a book is on the screen – it loses so much of its purity and honesty. But this has exceeded expectation and I’mContinue reading “An open letter about Suicide”
Have you tried…?
Why yes, yes I believe I have. That’s one of the first things someone says to me when I admit I’m in a bad way. “have you tried…?” Meditation – yepYoga – every weekExercise – every dayEating healthy – yesThinking positive thoughts – yupFocusing on your blessings – yesJUMPING UP AND DOWN – Ffs. IContinue reading “Have you tried…?”
Looking ahead and not down
I don’t know if I’ve already told you this, but I’m rubbish lately on a bike. I used to be awesome at it, then about 20 years passed and I wasn’t so great at it. I remember spending a day cycling around Mandurah with my beloved friend “G” and mostly face-planting and stacking it –Continue reading “Looking ahead and not down”
My very 1st Spa Treatment
I’ve never been to a “Spa” before. The thought of it makes me shiver because my instant thoughts are “I have to be naked” swiftly followed by “I don’t want to do that”. Friends I know – and my Mom especially – love being massaged and having ‘spa treatments’ done on them. I’ve heard aboutContinue reading “My very 1st Spa Treatment”
Wreckage
On my walk to work, I follow the same pattern. I always cross at the same intersection. I always walk closest to the buildings rather than the edge of the footpath near the road. When I’m walking down Adelaide Terrace, I always stop to admire the 2 massive trees on the sidewalk. They’re huge. SometimesContinue reading “Wreckage”
The girl in the red shirt
I finished work yesterday evening and caught the free bus into the city, smiling to myself as I pictured Alun’s happy face and how great it would feel to hug him and hear about how his day went. I got off at my usual stop and waited with about 35 impatient, tired workers to crossContinue reading “The girl in the red shirt”
Divorce and ReMarriage
Hey, I have nothing to do at work. I’ve re-filled the printers with paper, tidied the stationery cupboard, loaded the dishwasher, tidied the kitchen and both meeting rooms are being used, or I would have tidied them, too. I’ve checked work emails and responded to everything – which left me with an hour to goContinue reading “Divorce and ReMarriage”