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I just want to cry
8 long hours of work, mostly trying to put anxious family members at ease. I’m exhausted. I race home to be here for the Coles groceries delivery. They are an hour late. FFS. I could have caught the train home but I sprang for an uber so that I wouldn’t be late but oh yes, […]
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Camilla D&E Day 3
Loops around the rose garden: 12 Water: 1 litre so far (it’s only lunchtime now) Consumed: 1 meal replacement shake 1 handful of mixed salted nuts (probably bad for me but I’m trying here). Today I need to Uber home to be there on time to receive the Coles groceries I ordered online so my […]
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Older and wiser…I think
16-year-old me getting on a bus: Omg this is so embarrassing Is everyone looking at me, thinking “She’s fat. Ugly. Weird”? Oh no. There aren’t any free seats. Please kill me now. I can’t believe I have to sit next to a stranger. Oh. My. God. This is so awkward. I have to pick a […]
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I’ll stay on the phone with you…
Another happy memory came to me so I thought I’d write about it. This one’s brought to you by my friend Troy. Not the Troy that I lost through schizophrenia…this Troy I met through an online dating site 13 years ago. Lol. I liked Troy’s profile so I messaged him (rare as guys everywhere were […]
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The Stanford County Jail/Prison “experiment”
I heard about it a few years ago. I think YouTube recommended it to me. Hmm. If you haven’t heard about it, it was a “psychology experiment” of power and the abuse of it, given the opportunity to do so and get away with it, run by a Psychiatrist in the 70’s. It was supposed […]
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I can’t even kill myself properly.
JD. Omg woman, you can’t even commit suicide properly, you dumb fuck. I took the train to the Freo seaside. Something about being by the sea brings me so much peace. I love the sound of waves pushing, pulling, crashing and reforming. It’s…magical. From Bather’s Beach, I posted my last blog and downed as many […]
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The very last one.
When I was little, I refused to eat anything except chicken nuggets and corn kernels. For 2 years. Yep. I would savour every bite. I thought Western food was the most awesome thing ever. You know the feeling when you’re with someone you love? Or when you’re around the first crush you had? You wanted […]
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The opposite of love isn’t hate…it’s indifference
I heard it on Oprah once when she was interviewing someone and at the time, life was good. I was happy and things with my brother were what I thought of as “great” – when I look back on it now with hindsight, it’s because I wasn’t challenging him on anything and was just stuck […]
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You can’t kill me twice
When I’m under pressure and not well mentally, I panic and make HUGE, often life-altering DECISIONS. Usually on an email so there’s evidence after I’ve calmed down that I’ve lost my damn mind and should NOT have made any decisions. I’m pretty stupid so I make the same mistakes over and over. Today I struggled […]
"I get knocked down, but I get up again" 