Category: siblings

• The heart of my Memoir

  I signed onto a free online class about Memoir writing today. It was difficult to concentrate solely on the class and not look around the room or let my mind drift off to other things. Something I picked up on was finding the heart of my Memoir. The Lecturer said her Memoir started out as…

  janetdthomas77

  October 29, 2022

  addiction, anxiety, Author life, books, Christian life, communication, dating, family, Family Obligations, Favouritism, Fears, Friends, goals, happy memories, hospital, Humour, identity, Illness, Jealousy, Life, loss, love, marriage, memoir, mental illness, obsessed, Relationships, sexlife, siblings, suicide, worth, Writer, writing

  2ndmarriage, abuse, acceptance, addiction, advice, anxiety, authenticity, author, Author struggles, authorlife, authors, authorsLife, backstories, backstory, battles, blessings, bloggers, book production, bookgoals, bookreview, books, boys, breakups, buddingauthor, buddingwriter, canweevergoback, changedforever, chapterhook, redraft, rewrite

• A bitter pill to swallow

  Ironically the medication I take is literally bitter pills. I have the unfortunate moment of tasting them on my tongue before I wash them down with the tiny paper cup of water the Nurse gives me after watching to make sure I swallow my tablets. Anyway. Blogging is all good and well when I’m the…

  janetdthomas77

  October 20, 2022

  anxiety, family, Family Obligations, Favouritism, Fears, identity, Illness, Jealousy, Life, Relationships, siblings, worth

  brothers, family, Favouritism, Jealousy, Life, mental illness, Relationships, resentment

• The 1st Chapter of my Memoir

  You’re in for a treat tonight, guys – I wanted to share my updated 1st Chapter of my Memoir with you and ask your thoughts on it. Here it is: Chapter 1: The Mountain I carry Afternoons were always humid in Nhulunbuy, so sweat beaded on our foreheads and made its way in rivers down…

  janetdthomas77

  October 12, 2022

  Author life, books, family, Family Obligations, Favouritism, Fears, Friends, gardening, identity, Jealousy, Life, loss, love, memoir, Relationships, siblings, worth

  family, Favouritism, goldenchild, Life, matilda, mental illness, Relationships, unfavouritechild

• 4 Policemen, 2 Ambulance officers, flashing lights…and a tearful husband.

  I’m struggling, guys. I’m really struggling. I don’t feel anything apart from grief, loss, rage, confusion and a profound hurt that has sunk into the marrow of my bones and physically makes my body ache. Alun won’t believe me and if I talked to a friend about how I’m feeling, I’m so scared I’ll burden…

  janetdthomas77

  September 21, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Family Obligations, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss, marriage, siblings, Welfarecheck

  aching, afraid, ambulance, anxious, Burnt out, cantcope, cantgoon, cantmoveforward, conflict, DadisDead, dark thoughts, DealingwithDeath, emotional, FamilyDynamics, fatigued, Fears, GodIneedyou, grief, Grieving, hospital, Hospital visit, hurting, husband, Icantgoon, Icantmoveforward, lessons, limits, maritalproblems, marriageconcerns, notsustainable, Obligations, overwhelmed, painful, panicattacks, pleasehelpme, Police

• Unfavourite

  As I was writing my Memoir, I was gaslighting myself! Was your childhood really that bad, JD – or did you dramatise it? I actually took to YouTube of all places, to find out how other people have been affected by knowing their parents favoured their sibling over them. One girl commented “if my Mother…

  janetdthomas77

  May 20, 2022

  Author life, family, Family Obligations, Favouritism, goals, identity, Life, loss, Relationships, siblings, worth, writing

  99problems, aching, advice, anxiety, assertyourself, author, Author struggles, authorsLife, buddingwriter, FamilyDynamics, gaslighting

• I’m cured! JKS. I’m still very unwell

  The thing with being discharged from a PSYCHIATRIC WARD is that people without mental illness think it means you’re “all better” again when in reality, you’re FAR from it. I feel like I’ve been yeeted back into a dark, roaring ocean and I’m back to fighting for my life. Kicking hard with my legs to…

  janetdthomas77

  January 21, 2022

  abuse, anxiety, depression, family, Fears, food, grief, identity, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, Relationships, siblings

  CanIdothis, depression, Expectationsarehigh, family, JesusIneedYou, mental illness, Mom, Momyouaredrivingmenuts, ProvidingforMom, Relationships, TrustinYouLord

• Just around the corner

  I saw that Mom was online and clicked on ‘video call’, smiling as I waited for her phone camera to connect with mine. I looked at the mirror image of myself in the corner of my phone screen and sighed – my hair was everywhere and I had no makeup on. I haven’t been bothered…

  janetdthomas77

  August 7, 2021

  family, Fears, Life, loss, Relationships, siblings

  banned, boys, brothers, estranged, family, hurting, Relationships, stalker, thisisbollocks