Category: self love
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Just…do what you can.
Depression is an insidious bastard. I’m caught up in it’s awful, sticky grip right now and it makes very simple things suddenly very difficult. Like showering. Showering means I have to take off my clothes. All of them. Already I am overwhelmed at the thought of undressing. It already feels like too much to have […]
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The State that I’m in
Firstly, the blessing is that I’m loved. I have SO MANY amazing, caring, sweet, incredible friends, an extraordinary husband and a Mom who loves me so very much. She drives me nuts, but she’s my Mom. I’m so thankful for at least ONE parent in my life. I will forever miss my Dad being around. […]
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If you could, what year would you time-travel to and why?
#bloganuary #bloganuary2022 #BloganuaryChallenge #BloganuaryPrompt21 The answer for me is easy – 2009. The BEST and worst year of my entire life. The worst – Because I decided my marriage was breaking me down so I asked for a divorce. I singlehandedly moved from the house with my then-husband in UK back to Australia and I […]
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Learning and growing
It’s been 2 weeks since I was first admitted to the Psychiatric Ward here at Hollywood Clinic. I can’t believe it’s been so long, it only feels like a few days. I’ve learnt a lot in group therapy about calming myself down when I feel distressed, about “radical acceptance” of things I can’t change and […]
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The time I almost hit a homeless woman
I know, shocking hey? But yep, it really did happen…or almost did. There I was, walking down Murray Street and I was on the phone to Dad, just chatting away about our days, maybe we were planning to meet up for dinner that night? No idea. I just know Dad was on the phone when […]
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Stuffing grief down to my feet
…doesn’t work, guys. It just does NOT work. I am trying to go to work – full 8 hour days at the office (Praise God, I’m in a really great job with very little responsibility or I would have fallen apart ages ago) and be ‘normal’ while inside I’m crumbling and hurting over my Dad’s […]
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I’m walking away
So today, I need to come up with a final decision for my boss. Here’s what’s been going on in the last few days: I’ve posted on Facebook about my struggle to decide and beloved friends have weighed in – albeit very gently – on it. Some are for staying, some are for leaving. Great. […]