Category: narcissist
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The Stanford County Jail/Prison “experiment”
I heard about it a few years ago. I think YouTube recommended it to me. Hmm. If you haven’t heard about it, it was a “psychology experiment” of power and the abuse of it, given the opportunity to do so and get away with it, run by a Psychiatrist in the 70’s. It was supposed…
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Black box
A talented artist Stan Walker sings a song I LOVE called “Black Box” where in the chorus he sings “There’s a little black box yeah, somewhere in the ocean…holding all the truth about us…there’s a little black box, a record of emotion…everything there ever was…” (** Black boxes are anti-breakable boxes on planes that record…
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Pretty pink imposter
#scammed #identitytheft #betrayed #used #conned #prettypinkimposter #howcouldyou #shameonyou #why It’s 12:20am and Alun (praise God) is fast asleep, resting tonight (this morning?) before he starts his 12 hour shift tomorrow from 11am – 11pm. He’s hurting a lot and is very unhappy – he’s going through a lot of really hard things so I’m glad…
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The Shrink next door
It’s hard to write today’s blog because it hurts my heart to remember back to the abusive relationship I was in and how much pain I went through at the time. I wrote a chapter about Anne in my Memoir but watching appleTV’s series “The Shrink next door” and seeing a sweet, vulnerable man go…
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Brought Low
I was in Kmart, selecting size 16 (OH MY GOD WHY AM I SO HUUUUGE!?!) pants for my new job which was going to start after the weekend. I was so excited to be a Data Entry Officer for the Hospital and get paid a fortune for basically filling in boring forms on the computer…
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Surprisingly, I’M the toxic one
I was stood in line at the Bakery yesterday in Maylands, eyeing up my favourite vanilla cannoli’s in the display fridge. Mmmmmm. Bob Dylan’s “Hey Mr Tambourine Man” started playing and before I knew it, my heart was aching and tears were rolling down my cheeks. My Dad loved Dylan. Since my Dad died, I…
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OK then
May 09, 2019 Jay didn’t respond to my text, you guys. I don’t think he ever will again, to be honest. And yet a shiny, golden part of my heart always wants to try – wants to hold on and not let go. But it hurts! It hurts me terribly when Jay ignores me. I checked my…
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To his grave
April 26, 2019 It’s been 2 years since my brother acknowledged my existence. That is enough to break my heart. What REPEATEDLY breaks it is that my parents are OK with my brother’s treatment of me. HOW IS THIS OKAY?!? I currently have a blood clot on my lung and if it was to move…
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Ruined
December 25, 2017 I had a great Christmas morning. Alun – who normally hates Christmas – was in a giddy. It was wonderful to see him so happy and even though I complained about it, it made me smile to hear Alun making songs up about Christmas. It was mostly Alun singing the word “presents”…
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My family
July 11, 2017 Since my last phone call with my Mom where she suggested “smelling flowers” to entirely cure my depression and struggle with suicide (aargghhhhhh!!!) I’ve changed her contact details from “Mom” to “Do not answer this call until you feel better” on my phone. I’ve done the same for my Dad. “Do not…
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