Category: grief

• HOW IS THIS OK?!?

  Yesterday was a really, really hard day. I was climbing the walls in an extremely high state of distress and no matter how many times I waited to be seen at the Nurses station, asked for help, got told “yes, in a minute – go back to your room and put some mindfulness and distress […]

  janetdthomas77

  October 10, 2022

  abuse, addiction, anxiety, Burnt out, death, depression, Friends, grief, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, rest, self help

  anxiety, depression, grief, Life, mental illness, sucidalAF, thisclosetodying

• The Girl before

  I used to be her. Bubbly. Full of life. A mischevious laugh. A big – yet charming – flirt with guys and a best friend to all girls; especially to the shy introvert. I couldn’t help but adopt them. I was an extrovert – loud, brash, mouthy, cheeky and filled with rainbows, forest green glitter […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 11, 2022

  anxiety, death, depression, grief, happy memories, Humour, identity, Illness, Life, loss, love, mental illness, Mindfulness

  canweevergoback, changedforever, Life, memories, mental illness, nostalgia, painful, Relationships, thegirlafter, thegirlbefore

• A calculated risk

  The phone rang and lit up an orange box at the top of my screen, indicating that a new call was coming in. This was to be my 1st call of the day for work and 200-300 more were to come. That’s my usual work day and I’m slowly starting to get used to it. […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 10, 2022

  communication, grief, hospital, Life, loss, Relationships, Work

  breaking rules, calls, risks, taking risks, Work

• Father’s day

  I miss my Dad every single day. Holidays like today – Father’s day – multiplies the grief tenfold. I’m hurting so much that my bones ache. Last year was my 1st Father’s day without Dad. I made myself go to his favourite pub in the city, ordered a glass of lemon, lime and bitters and […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 4, 2022

  death, depression, family, grief, Grieving, Holidays, loss

  DadDied, FathersDay, grief, Griefdoesntknock, Grieving, MissyouDad

• What could have been

  I’ve seen the same guy on the train for the last few days and he looks a lot like my friend Troy. He’s always on his phone and wears a brown jacket and dark grey jeans. I wonder where he goes? Maybe to work? He must be a creature of habit like me because we […]

  janetdthomas77

  August 25, 2022

  addiction, grief, hospital, identity, Illness, mental illness, Relationships

  addictedtosugarandsalt, backstory, conflict, dark thoughts, dating, decisions, destruction, foodaddictions, friendsarekindnotcruel, friendsarelife, friendship, friendshipistwoways, friendswillliftyouup, good memories, Health, hospital, Hospital visit, intruder, losing a friend, lostalovedone, mental illness, mental illness awareness, mentalhealth, narrative, notafriend

• For Shanti…a shining star in a dark storm

  As writers, we live lonely lives. We write and we try to share our hearts on paper (or in these times of modernity online) but there is always that fear – that worry – firstly of “Is anyone going to read this?”, then the anxious thoughts of of “Will they like it?” when really we […]

  janetdthomas77

  August 21, 2022

  Author life, books, family, Fears, food, Friends, grief, Grieving, happy memories, identity, Illness, kindness, Life, loss, love, Relationships, Work, worth

  bloggers, bloggingcommunity, Dad, family, friendship, grief, Life, supporteachother

• The kitchen incident

  As you guys know, I’ve been really, really sick these last few weeks. I’ve had to stay in at home and it hasn’t been a “fun” illness where I can lay in bed and read books…it’s absolutely knocked me for 6 and I’ve suffered terribly. So when 2 people at my work who are “close […]

  janetdthomas77

  July 8, 2022

  fed up, grief, hospital, Illness, panic attacks, Suicidalideations, Work

  angry, anxiety, Covid, frustrated, wearyiurdamnmask

• 30 questions with JD :)

  Totes copying from an awesome blog by one of my favourite bloggers “Frog Machinery” where he interviews himself and gave us all insight into who he is as a person. In true Janet fashion, I like his idea and want to do the same. I’ll put the kettle on, you get comfortable. Let’s go! When […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 13, 2022

  Author life, books, family, Fears, food, Friends, gardening, grief, happy memories, helptheHomeless, Humour, identity, Illness, Life, loss, love, mental illness, Mindfulness, relationship advice

  30questions, anxiety, askme, authorlife, depression, Life, Relationships, writerslife

• Surviving parent guilt

  Since my Dad died, I’ve come across new things. Like crippling grief. Grief that looks and feels like 80 feet waves pummelling me, tumbling me, confusing and frightening me. Grief like that. Grief that – like waves – doesn’t let you come up for air. It doesn’t stop for a second so you can’t stop. […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 10, 2022

  anxiety, death, family, Family Obligations, grief, Grieving, loss, money, Relationships, Work

  family, grief, GriefsFirsts, guilty, killingme, survivingparentguilt, wavesthatdontstop

• It’s been a year since you went away

  Hey Dad, Ed Sheeran has a song out called “Visiting hours” where he wants to go and see his Mom in Heaven. I’ve had it on repeat all day as tears have flowed down my face. I never thought I’d be able to relate to losing a parent and yet here we are. I close […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 4, 2022

  Author life, books, death, depression, family, grief, Grieving, happy memories, loss, Relationships

  Dad, family, grief, grievingbadly, hatethesefuckinganniversaries, lossofaparent, MissyouDad