family – "I get knocked down, but I get up again"

Sharing my world

#shareyourworld #writingprompts #July2022 Here are my answers to Melanie’s questions: What’s your favorite way to spend a day off? Easy – sleeping! Hahahahaha! I love to be able to rest, it’s life. Seriously. If you’re retired, what’s something you now include in your schedule that you dreamed about while employed? Ahahahhaha it’ll be a LONNGGGGG […]

janetdthomas77

June 29, 2022

alcohol, anxiety, Author life, communication, family, Humour, identity, Life, mental illness, shareyourworld, Work

gratitude, Life, mental illness, questions, Relationships, shareyourworld

30 questions with JD :)

Totes copying from an awesome blog by one of my favourite bloggers “Frog Machinery” where he interviews himself and gave us all insight into who he is as a person. In true Janet fashion, I like his idea and want to do the same. I’ll put the kettle on, you get comfortable. Let’s go! When […]

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June 13, 2022

Author life, books, family, Fears, food, Friends, gardening, grief, happy memories, helptheHomeless, Humour, identity, Illness, Life, loss, love, mental illness, Mindfulness, relationship advice

30questions, anxiety, askme, authorlife, depression, Life, Relationships, writerslife

Friends make the world a much better place

I’m off mood stablisers and this is my 3rd week of withdrawing from them. It has been HELL. I’m not even kidding. So now that no medication is ‘stabilising’ me, I’m crying at the drop of a hat. Everything makes me cry. Toast that dropped on the floor – butter side up – I stared […]

janetdthomas77

June 13, 2022

addiction, anxiety, family, Friends, happy memories, Humour, identity, Life, love

Friends, friendship, thankfulformymates, turningred

Surviving parent guilt

Since my Dad died, I’ve come across new things. Like crippling grief. Grief that looks and feels like 80 feet waves pummelling me, tumbling me, confusing and frightening me. Grief like that. Grief that – like waves – doesn’t let you come up for air. It doesn’t stop for a second so you can’t stop. […]

janetdthomas77

June 10, 2022

anxiety, death, family, Family Obligations, grief, Grieving, loss, money, Relationships, Work

family, grief, GriefsFirsts, guilty, killingme, survivingparentguilt, wavesthatdontstop

I’ve got you, Mom xx

janetdthomas77

June 6, 2022

family, Family Obligations, Grieving, Life, loss, money

Dad, grief, GriefsFirsts, hatethesefuckinganniversaries, loss, lossofaparent, miss my Dad

It’s been a year since you went away

Hey Dad, Ed Sheeran has a song out called “Visiting hours” where he wants to go and see his Mom in Heaven. I’ve had it on repeat all day as tears have flowed down my face. I never thought I’d be able to relate to losing a parent and yet here we are. I close […]

janetdthomas77

June 4, 2022

Author life, books, death, depression, family, grief, Grieving, happy memories, loss, Relationships

Dad, family, grief, grievingbadly, hatethesefuckinganniversaries, lossofaparent, MissyouDad

The Mountain I carry

What is your first ever memory? Was it happy? (I pray that it was). I have blurry, far-away memories – as if I’m seeing them underwater and all the sounds and sights are fuzzy and not quite clear enough to be definite… I think I remember the hut I grew up in – in the […]

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June 3, 2022

anxiety, bullies, depression, family, Favouritism, Fears, identity, Life, Relationships, worth

Favouritism, Life, painful, themountainIcarry, unfavourite, worthless

Thankful

I’m still in pain. Still suffering. Still uncomfortable no matter what position I sit or lay in. So instead of complaining, I’m going to tell you what I’m thankful for. I’m thankful for Alun. He’s going through a lot of grief and has his friend Dave’s funeral on the 8th June. Even so, he is […]

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June 2, 2022

Author life, books, family, Family Obligations, food, marriage, Mindfulness, money, Work, writing

Life, pain, Relationships, withdrawalssuck

Unfavourite

As I was writing my Memoir, I was gaslighting myself! Was your childhood really that bad, JD – or did you dramatise it? I actually took to YouTube of all places, to find out how other people have been affected by knowing their parents favoured their sibling over them. One girl commented “if my Mother […]

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May 20, 2022