Category: Burnt out

• HOW IS THIS OK?!?

  Yesterday was a really, really hard day. I was climbing the walls in an extremely high state of distress and no matter how many times I waited to be seen at the Nurses station, asked for help, got told “yes, in a minute – go back to your room and put some mindfulness and distress […]

  janetdthomas77

  October 10, 2022

  abuse, addiction, anxiety, Burnt out, death, depression, Friends, grief, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, rest, self help

  anxiety, depression, grief, Life, mental illness, sucidalAF, thisclosetodying

• Plan B

  Today I’m fortifying my castle walls and to protect myself as I rebuild, I’m not going to interact with anyone if I can help it. I’m going to stay in my room all day so that no one can talk to me. Yesterday really traumatised me and I’m not sure how to recover from it […]

  janetdthomas77

  October 9, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, communication, depression, Fears, fed up, Grieving, Protecting myself

  anxiety, depression, mental illness, protectmyheart, psychward, stayalone, staysafe

• 4 Policemen, 2 Ambulance officers, flashing lights…and a tearful husband.

  I’m struggling, guys. I’m really struggling. I don’t feel anything apart from grief, loss, rage, confusion and a profound hurt that has sunk into the marrow of my bones and physically makes my body ache. Alun won’t believe me and if I talked to a friend about how I’m feeling, I’m so scared I’ll burden […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 21, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Family Obligations, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss, marriage, siblings, Welfarecheck

  aching, afraid, ambulance, anxious, Burnt out, cantcope, cantgoon, cantmoveforward, conflict, DadisDead, dark thoughts, DealingwithDeath, emotional, FamilyDynamics, fatigued, Fears, GodIneedyou, grief, Grieving, hospital, Hospital visit, hurting, husband, Icantgoon, Icantmoveforward, lessons, limits, maritalproblems, marriageconcerns, notsustainable, Obligations, overwhelmed, painful, panicattacks, pleasehelpme, Police

• There’s no substitute for compassion

  The latest thing out there right now is all about “manifesting” goodness, wealth, health, happiness etc into your own life. “If you believe it…you will achieve it“ Sorry, (not really) but that’s utter bullsh*t. Believing and – for the love of God – manifesting *shudder* good things can only get you so far. I think […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 17, 2022

  Burnt out, Family Obligations, fed up, manifesting

  99problems, aching, advice, anxious, bad advice, bekind, betrayed, Bollocks, burntout, cantcope, cantgoon, cantmoveforward, choosewordswisely, crossingoceans, disbelief, disgusted, don't be rude, encouragement, exhausted, family, fatigued, manifesting

• Just…do what you can.

  

  Depression is an insidious bastard. I’m caught up in it’s awful, sticky grip right now and it makes very simple things suddenly very difficult. Like showering. Showering means I have to take off my clothes. All of them. Already I am overwhelmed at the thought of undressing. It already feels like too much to have […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 9, 2022

  Burnt out, depression, fed up, identity, Illness, Life, rest, self help, self love

  cantcope, depression, Life, mental illness, toohard, toomuch, toopainful

• I am in HELL

  I think I’ve taken a variety of Anti-depressants for over 30 years of my bloody life, I really do. Normally, they work for a little bit (I celebrate exhuberantly) then they stop working. I try and try to keep going. I try excersize, eating well, meditation, LOADS OF PRAYER as well as the medications. I […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 30, 2022

  abuse, addiction, anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Illness

  addiction, drugs, makeitstop, pain, pleaseGod, suffering, withdrawal

• Still here

  Yesterday I called in “sick” to work. I feel bad about it because I wasn’t sick, I was fed up, overwhelmed and burnt out. I don’t know if that would have been acceptable to call in with, so I went with “a migraine” which was accepted without question. Hmm. I also emailed my Psychiatrist’s secretary […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 18, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Fears, fed up, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, panic attacks

  99problems, aching, afraid, anxiety, anxious, depression, mental illness, struggling

• I am here at work. That is enough.

  janetdthomas77

  May 13, 2022

  Burnt out, Life, money, Work

  knackered, overwhelmed, tired, workinghard

• Happy Memory #2

  Alun and I were moving house. I was SO EXCITED about it as the first home we moved into was something Alun chose while I was working long hours and when I saw it, my heart dropped. It was an old (VERY OLD) yellow cottage on a quiet street near a Primary school and really, […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 6, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, family, Fears, Friends, happy memories, Illness, kindness, Life, love, Relationships, Work

  blessed, family, friendsarelife, friendship, Life, mental illness, rainbowhouse, Relationships