Sliding Doors

February 18, 2019 The below is ENTIRELY fiction. It’s just me daydreaming – thought you’d like to come with me: Sliding Doors I catch the train to work every day. I go up the same stairs. I see the same people – the woman who always eats a mars bar as she waits at theContinue reading “Sliding Doors”

Speak to yourself as you would to someone you love

August 30, 2018 I talk to myself. A LOT. Mostly I try to encourage myself. I think it’s important to be your own advocate because in those deep, dark times where you are all alone – then you have to be your own cheerleader. You have to. What I was thinking about today was how easyContinue reading “Speak to yourself as you would to someone you love”

To his grave

April 26, 2019 It’s been 2 years since my brother acknowledged my existence. That is enough to break my heart. What REPEATEDLY breaks it is that my parents are OK with my brother’s treatment of me. HOW IS THIS OKAY?!? I currently have a blood clot on my lung and if it was to moveContinue reading “To his grave”

Sleep

March 11, 2019 So today consisted of: 8:30am – awake. Not because I want to be, but because Alun has licked his finger and put it in my ear. “Morning, Gorg! Margaret river todaaayyyy!” he sings. *sigh* 9:00am – help Alun load cases and bags of food (mostly of beers) into the car boot.Why?Because AlunContinue reading “Sleep”

Waves

March 04, 2019 I don’t remember how old I was – maybe 13? My family and I were in America and I think we were in Florida. There was a huge pool and Jay and I were splashing about in it, having fun. Suddenly, these alarms started going off and people in the pool wereContinue reading “Waves”

Panic attacks

May 23, 2018 I’ve not experienced them a lot in my life – or if I have, they’ve been so few and far between and not as frightening – so I haven’t had much chance to remember them…but the ones I’m having lately? I will never forget. Panic attacks. They suck balls. I got my firstContinue reading “Panic attacks”