Category: anxiety

• Dangerous Territory

  Full disclosure guys, (maybe you’ve even already read about it so it won’t come as a surprise to you) I USED TO BE A STALKER. Something I’m deeply ashamed of and given the choice, I keep under wraps and try not to bring up/talk about. It was a dark, confusing time in my life and […]

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  October 30, 2022

  addiction, anxiety, Facts are facts, Fears, hospital, identity, Illness, Jealousy, Life, loss, obsessed, Relationships, sex, stalking

  anxiety, depression, Life, mental illness, obsession, stalker, stalking

• The heart of my Memoir

  I signed onto a free online class about Memoir writing today. It was difficult to concentrate solely on the class and not look around the room or let my mind drift off to other things. Something I picked up on was finding the heart of my Memoir. The Lecturer said her Memoir started out as […]

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  October 29, 2022

  addiction, anxiety, Author life, books, Christian life, communication, dating, family, Family Obligations, Favouritism, Fears, Friends, goals, happy memories, hospital, Humour, identity, Illness, Jealousy, Life, loss, love, marriage, memoir, mental illness, obsessed, Relationships, sexlife, siblings, suicide, worth, Writer, writing

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• A bitter pill to swallow

  Ironically the medication I take is literally bitter pills. I have the unfortunate moment of tasting them on my tongue before I wash them down with the tiny paper cup of water the Nurse gives me after watching to make sure I swallow my tablets. Anyway. Blogging is all good and well when I’m the […]

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  October 20, 2022

  anxiety, family, Family Obligations, Favouritism, Fears, identity, Illness, Jealousy, Life, Relationships, siblings, worth

  brothers, family, Favouritism, Jealousy, Life, mental illness, Relationships, resentment

• Writer’s homework

  My book Coach Annie sent me ‘homework’ to do regarding my Memoir and I wanted to share my answers with you…because…why not? (just quietly, I am an attention whore and love it). Here you go: Writing exercises: What is your memoir’s working title? Why did you choose it? What other titles have you considered? Why […]

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  October 17, 2022

  abuse, addiction, anxiety, Author life, books, communication, family, Favouritism, Fears, Friends, goals, identity, Illness, Life, loss, love, memoir, mental illness, Relationships, Writer, writing

  author, authorlife, memoir, memoirwriting, thestruggleisreal, Writer, writing

• My Authentic Self

  Today in “groups” we talked about “ACT” Acceptance, Commitment Therapy. I missed the first group because I was on the phone having a psychology appointment (Finally!!! YASS!!!) but I came into the second class and we talked about making meaningful lives for ourselves and what was important to us – what made life worth living, […]

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  October 14, 2022

  anxiety, communication, Fears, Friends, goals, happiness, happy memories, identity, Jealousy, Life, love, Mindfulness, Relationships, self love

  acceptance, authenticity, empowerment, friendship, genuinecompliment, genuineself, girlpower, girlssupportgirls, Life, Relationships

• HOW IS THIS OK?!?

  Yesterday was a really, really hard day. I was climbing the walls in an extremely high state of distress and no matter how many times I waited to be seen at the Nurses station, asked for help, got told “yes, in a minute – go back to your room and put some mindfulness and distress […]

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  October 10, 2022

  abuse, addiction, anxiety, Burnt out, death, depression, Friends, grief, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, rest, self help

  anxiety, depression, grief, Life, mental illness, sucidalAF, thisclosetodying

• Plan B

  Today I’m fortifying my castle walls and to protect myself as I rebuild, I’m not going to interact with anyone if I can help it. I’m going to stay in my room all day so that no one can talk to me. Yesterday really traumatised me and I’m not sure how to recover from it […]

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  October 9, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, communication, depression, Fears, fed up, Grieving, Protecting myself

  anxiety, depression, mental illness, protectmyheart, psychward, stayalone, staysafe

• “I can take it”

  

  I want to help whenever I see someone hurting. I can’t seem to help but want to go over to them, put an arm around them or automatically lift up the other end of whatever huge burden they’re pulling along behind them so that between us, the burden won’t be as heavy on that person. […]

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  October 8, 2022

  abuse, addiction, alcohol, anxiety, bullies, coercive control, death, depression, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss

  anxiety, aroughday, burdenened, depression, family, grief, hospital, mental illness, psychpatientsshouldcomewithawarning, psychward, traumatised, triggerwarning

• 4 Policemen, 2 Ambulance officers, flashing lights…and a tearful husband.

  I’m struggling, guys. I’m really struggling. I don’t feel anything apart from grief, loss, rage, confusion and a profound hurt that has sunk into the marrow of my bones and physically makes my body ache. Alun won’t believe me and if I talked to a friend about how I’m feeling, I’m so scared I’ll burden […]

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  September 21, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Family Obligations, Fears, fed up, Grieving, hospital, Illness, loss, marriage, siblings, Welfarecheck

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• The Girl before

  I used to be her. Bubbly. Full of life. A mischevious laugh. A big – yet charming – flirt with guys and a best friend to all girls; especially to the shy introvert. I couldn’t help but adopt them. I was an extrovert – loud, brash, mouthy, cheeky and filled with rainbows, forest green glitter […]

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  September 11, 2022

  anxiety, death, depression, grief, happy memories, Humour, identity, Illness, Life, loss, love, mental illness, Mindfulness

  canweevergoback, changedforever, Life, memories, mental illness, nostalgia, painful, Relationships, thegirlafter, thegirlbefore