October 23, 2019 Something about being in Coles supermarket sets my bum off. I don’t know what it is. Probably because my ass hates me and wants to poo when I’m the furtherest away from a working toilet possible. This time, a toilet was only about 500 meters away. Lucky me. So I was inContinue reading “Sore thumb”
Category Archives: anxiety
JD. For the love of God…REST!!!
October 19, 2019 Before I start complaining, I’ve had a really good few days off. It’s been so good to wake up when I naturally am awake and not in a panic when my alarm goes off for work. It’s been nice to do a ‘full makeup’ look on my face because I can takeContinue reading “JD. For the love of God…REST!!!”
Carving out time for myself
October 16, 2019 My whole life, I feel like I’m caging myself. Watching what I say.Being careful to be soft, quiet and pleasing.Being what everyone needs me to be so much I forget who I actually am.I am so locked into being ‘liked’ that I spend my life – my whole life – playing whatever role isContinue reading “Carving out time for myself”
Bruised reed
October 16, 2019 I feel like a bruised reed in a rice patty field. Just barely hanging in there as the water rushes past me. My roots desperately gripping the watery soil and when the wind blows…well…it’s just a matter of time before I come apart completely. Just a matter of time before I loseContinue reading “Bruised reed”
Make lemons from lemonade
October 13, 2019 Have you ever actually tried making lemonade? IT. IS. A. BASTARD. To get the quantities just right and to make it something palatable and not disgusting takes work. A lot of work. So, to whoever said “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade” – SCREW YOU, MAN. What if you don’t evenContinue reading “Make lemons from lemonade”
Broken
October 10, 2019 Yesterday, I sat in a window alcove on one of the busiest streets in the city and cried. I didn’t just cry, by the way – I wailed. I howled. Tears didn’t fall daintily down my cheeks – they poured. I didn’t care. This is me at my lowest point. I have justContinue reading “Broken”
OK then
May 09, 2019 Jay didn’t respond to my text, you guys. I don’t think he ever will again, to be honest. And yet a shiny, golden part of my heart always wants to try – wants to hold on and not let go. But it hurts! It hurts me terribly when Jay ignores me. I checked myContinue reading “OK then”
Angels called Albert
March 22, 2019 I think they are everywhere, you know…Angels. I think because they look just like regular people, we walk past them in the street, brush past them on buses and trains, maybe return their smiles in shopping centres or at parks, thank them when they hold the door open for us or letContinue reading “Angels called Albert”
Own your narrative
March 04, 2019 I watched a great series on “Netflix” a few weeks/months back called “sex education” – the naughty scenes were hard to watch so I mostly covered the phone with my hand (I watch Netflix a lot on my phone) until they were over; but the parts where people were there for theirContinue reading “Own your narrative”
Sliding Doors
February 18, 2019 The below is ENTIRELY fiction. It’s just me daydreaming – thought you’d like to come with me: Sliding Doors I catch the train to work every day. I go up the same stairs. I see the same people – the woman who always eats a mars bar as she waits at theContinue reading “Sliding Doors”
