Category: anxiety

• Sharing my world

  #shareyourworld #writingprompts #July2022 Here are my answers to Melanie’s questions: What’s your favorite way to spend a day off? Easy – sleeping! Hahahahaha! I love to be able to rest, it’s life. Seriously. If you’re retired, what’s something you now include in your schedule that you dreamed about while employed? Ahahahhaha it’ll be a LONNGGGGG […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 29, 2022

  alcohol, anxiety, Author life, communication, family, Humour, identity, Life, mental illness, shareyourworld, Work

  gratitude, Life, mental illness, questions, Relationships, shareyourworld

• Friends make the world a much better place

  I’m off mood stablisers and this is my 3rd week of withdrawing from them. It has been HELL. I’m not even kidding. So now that no medication is ‘stabilising’ me, I’m crying at the drop of a hat. Everything makes me cry. Toast that dropped on the floor – butter side up – I stared […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 13, 2022

  addiction, anxiety, family, Friends, happy memories, Humour, identity, Life, love

  Friends, friendship, thankfulformymates, turningred

• Surviving parent guilt

  Since my Dad died, I’ve come across new things. Like crippling grief. Grief that looks and feels like 80 feet waves pummelling me, tumbling me, confusing and frightening me. Grief like that. Grief that – like waves – doesn’t let you come up for air. It doesn’t stop for a second so you can’t stop. […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 10, 2022

  anxiety, death, family, Family Obligations, grief, Grieving, loss, money, Relationships, Work

  family, grief, GriefsFirsts, guilty, killingme, survivingparentguilt, wavesthatdontstop

• Addicted to fatty, salty, sugary food.

  

  I need to stop. Please help me stop.

  janetdthomas77

  June 9, 2022

  addiction, alcohol, anxiety, cheating, food, hospital, identity, Illness

  addictions, foodaddictions, helpme, Life, mental illness, nomoreJD

• Jealousy between friends

  Because of how I’ve grown up – being ignored for the most part, I’ve learnt to compare myself instantly to everyone around me. I find myself lacking pretty much every single time. “That girl is prettier than I am” (I think that of nearly every girl I see) “That guy is so much more talented […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 8, 2022

  anxiety, Author life, books, Fears, Friends, goals, Jealousy, Life, Relationships

  authors, crimethriller, empowerment, genres, jealousofmybestie, Jealousy, Life, writers

• The Mountain I carry

  

  What is your first ever memory? Was it happy? (I pray that it was). I have blurry, far-away memories – as if I’m seeing them underwater and all the sounds and sights are fuzzy and not quite clear enough to be definite… I think I remember the hut I grew up in – in the […]

  janetdthomas77

  June 3, 2022

  anxiety, bullies, depression, family, Favouritism, Fears, identity, Life, Relationships, worth

  Favouritism, Life, painful, themountainIcarry, unfavourite, worthless

• I am in HELL

  I think I’ve taken a variety of Anti-depressants for over 30 years of my bloody life, I really do. Normally, they work for a little bit (I celebrate exhuberantly) then they stop working. I try and try to keep going. I try excersize, eating well, meditation, LOADS OF PRAYER as well as the medications. I […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 30, 2022

  abuse, addiction, anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Illness

  addiction, drugs, makeitstop, pain, pleaseGod, suffering, withdrawal

• Black box

  A talented artist Stan Walker sings a song I LOVE called “Black Box” where in the chorus he sings “There’s a little black box yeah, somewhere in the ocean…holding all the truth about us…there’s a little black box, a record of emotion…everything there ever was…” (** Black boxes are anti-breakable boxes on planes that record […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 19, 2022

  abuse, addiction, alcohol, anxiety, depression, divorce, identity, love, marriage, mental illness, narcissist, Relationships

  abuse, addiction, Amber Heard, black box, cheating, divorce, Johnny Depp, pain, Relationships, Trial

• Still here

  Yesterday I called in “sick” to work. I feel bad about it because I wasn’t sick, I was fed up, overwhelmed and burnt out. I don’t know if that would have been acceptable to call in with, so I went with “a migraine” which was accepted without question. Hmm. I also emailed my Psychiatrist’s secretary […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 18, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Fears, fed up, hospital, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, panic attacks

  99problems, aching, afraid, anxiety, anxious, depression, mental illness, struggling

• Happy Memory #2

  Alun and I were moving house. I was SO EXCITED about it as the first home we moved into was something Alun chose while I was working long hours and when I saw it, my heart dropped. It was an old (VERY OLD) yellow cottage on a quiet street near a Primary school and really, […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 6, 2022

  anxiety, Burnt out, family, Fears, Friends, happy memories, Illness, kindness, Life, love, Relationships, Work

  blessed, family, friendsarelife, friendship, Life, mental illness, rainbowhouse, Relationships