Category: abuse

• I am in HELL

  I think I’ve taken a variety of Anti-depressants for over 30 years of my bloody life, I really do. Normally, they work for a little bit (I celebrate exhuberantly) then they stop working. I try and try to keep going. I try excersize, eating well, meditation, LOADS OF PRAYER as well as the medications. I […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 30, 2022

  abuse, addiction, anxiety, Burnt out, depression, Illness

  addiction, drugs, makeitstop, pain, pleaseGod, suffering, withdrawal

• Black box

  A talented artist Stan Walker sings a song I LOVE called “Black Box” where in the chorus he sings “There’s a little black box yeah, somewhere in the ocean…holding all the truth about us…there’s a little black box, a record of emotion…everything there ever was…” (** Black boxes are anti-breakable boxes on planes that record […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 19, 2022

  abuse, addiction, alcohol, anxiety, depression, divorce, identity, love, marriage, mental illness, narcissist, Relationships

  abuse, addiction, Amber Heard, black box, cheating, divorce, Johnny Depp, pain, Relationships, Trial

• Knock Knock. Who’s there? The Police.

  Ethel you’ve gone TOO FUCKING FAR now.

  janetdthomas77

  April 25, 2022

  abuse, anxiety, bullies, depression, Fears, grief, Grieving, Illness, mental illness, Police, suicide, Welfarecheck

  anxiety, bullies, bully, depression, ethelyoufucker, grief, loss, mental illness, mentalhealth, Police, Welfarecheck

• Spilling some tea

  You boiled the kettle, so enjoy the tea bitch.

  janetdthomas77

  April 18, 2022

  abuse, anxiety, cheating, coercive control, communication, divorce, marriage, mental illness, money, Relationships, remarriage

  cheating, comeback, disgusted, divorce, Life, mommasaidknockyouout, notsilentanymore, Relationships, revengeisbestservedcold, takethat, youngprey

• Pretty pink imposter

  #scammed #identitytheft #betrayed #used #conned #prettypinkimposter #howcouldyou #shameonyou #why It’s 12:20am and Alun (praise God) is fast asleep, resting tonight (this morning?) before he starts his 12 hour shift tomorrow from 11am – 11pm. He’s hurting a lot and is very unhappy – he’s going through a lot of really hard things so I’m glad […]

  janetdthomas77

  February 6, 2022

  abuse, anxiety, cheating, depression, dodging bullets, Fears, Friends, identity, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, narcissist, Work

  abused, betrayed, disgusted, dontlistentomyheart, identitytheft, rippedoff, stolenID

• I’m cured! JKS. I’m still very unwell

  The thing with being discharged from a PSYCHIATRIC WARD is that people without mental illness think it means you’re “all better” again when in reality, you’re FAR from it. I feel like I’ve been yeeted back into a dark, roaring ocean and I’m back to fighting for my life. Kicking hard with my legs to […]

  janetdthomas77

  January 21, 2022

  abuse, anxiety, depression, family, Fears, food, grief, identity, Illness, Life, loss, mental illness, Relationships, siblings

  CanIdothis, depression, Expectationsarehigh, family, JesusIneedYou, mental illness, Mom, Momyouaredrivingmenuts, ProvidingforMom, Relationships, TrustinYouLord

• The Shrink next door

  It’s hard to write today’s blog because it hurts my heart to remember back to the abusive relationship I was in and how much pain I went through at the time. I wrote a chapter about Anne in my Memoir but watching appleTV’s series “The Shrink next door” and seeing a sweet, vulnerable man go […]

  janetdthomas77

  November 25, 2021

  abuse, coercive control, family, Fears, Friends, Life, loss, narcissist, Relationships

  abuse, coercive control, conniving, destruction, lies, manipulation, pain, profoundhurt

• Brought Low

  I was in Kmart, selecting size 16 (OH MY GOD WHY AM I SO HUUUUGE!?!) pants for my new job which was going to start after the weekend. I was so excited to be a Data Entry Officer for the Hospital and get paid a fortune for basically filling in boring forms on the computer […]

  janetdthomas77

  September 16, 2021

  abuse, anxiety, cheating, identity, Life, mental illness, narcissist, Work

  identityfraud, identitytheft, impersonatingme, lossofincome, lossofjob

• Broken

  October 10, 2019 Yesterday, I sat in a window alcove on one of the busiest streets in the city and cried. I didn’t just cry, by the way – I wailed. I howled. Tears didn’t fall daintily down my cheeks – they poured. I didn’t care. This is me at my lowest point. I have just […]

  janetdthomas77

  May 5, 2021

  abuse, anxiety, Fears, Friends, Illness, Life, panic attacks, Relationships, rest, suicide

  stalker, struggling, suicidal thoughts, tooheavy, toomuch, underpressure, unhappy

• Good memories

  March 07, 2017 In an effort not to combust from all the RAGE I’m experiencing – here is a happy moment in my life a like to reflect on from time to time… When I was struggling under the weight of control “Gareth” had over me…on one of the rare afternoons Gareth wasn’t home “watching […]

  janetdthomas77

  April 24, 2021

  abuse, coercive control, dating, Fears, Friends, Life, love, mental illness, Relationships

  boys, boys who are friends, coercive control, Friends, friendship, Relationships