Well. I obviously need to read my Bible and have a more regular attendance at Church because I would.
My worst enemies? I hope they suffer.
I’m concerned about how cold and uncaring I am when it comes to people that have hurt me, abused me, betrayed me and used me.
I have absolutely no compassion for them whatsoever.
This is a toxic trait of mine. I pray that Jesus is able to fix me, heal me and make me someone gracious who wouldn’t wish harm on their enemies.
I think because I’ve been hurt sooo deeply. So badly. It’s been so hard to recover after what certain people have done to me because afterwards they didn’t get disciplined. They didn’t lose anything. If anything, while I’ve suffered incredible pain, the people who put me through the experience went on to propser.
That’s the part I really struggle with.
There was no vindication. No justice.
Then anger and resentment on my part because what someone did to me – and got away with – is so incredibly unfair that it feels like an insult in a way.
So yeah. I’m pretty LIVID about things that feel unfair.
Jesus, please forgive me and please help me to be forgiving and gracious to others.