Broken glass

Yesterday after 6 hours of crying, raging, Facebook posts (oops) and more crying, I finally gathered the courage and messaged Craig:

Hey Craig, I’m sorry but being your friend is too damn expensive. I’ve given you a total of $530 now and I know I’ll never see it again so consider it a goodbye gift. The most expensive one I’ve ever given. You’ve broken my heart. I trusted you! I don’t want to be friends any more. I’m not messaging you again after this. Stay safe, be well. Bye”

A moment later, Craig’s name lights up my phone screen.

I press the red button and cut the call off.

He rings again.

And again.

And again.

After TWENTY THREE missed calls (now my anxiety is through the roof!!!) he texts “please answer my call”

Broken, I text back “Please stop it. Please leave me alone”

5 more missed calls.

I’m shaking as I blog this, the encounter shook me up so badly.

“Pick up, Janet” Craig texts again.

I ASKED YOU TO STEP OFF, BRUH.

“I literally can’t afford to” I text back.

“Please don’t stop being my friend” he responds “I would be devastated to lose you”

Angry now, I type out “Prove it. Pay me ALL my money back. THEN we’ll talk”

And silence.

No more calls.

No pleading messages.

Just shattered pieces of glass where my trust used to be.

15 responses to “Broken glass”

  1. I’m sorry. That last chance we give them to redeem themselves is always the worst. We try give them a clean break, but they always give us hope in a hopeless situation, followed directly by disappointment. Im sorry again.

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    1. I’m so mad that after I said “this is my last message” I STILL kept messaging!!! I STILL held that glimmer of hope that Craig would say “I will pay it back” in order to restore our friendship. I was a bank to him and once I asked to be a FRIEND instead of an automatic cash dispenser…the conversion came to an abrupt halt.

      It hurt me so much.

      Thank you for taking the time to comment. Being able to talk with you about this eases the ache deep in my chest. Thank you so much for listening and for sending kindness, empathy and encouragement ❤️

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  2. You will heal dear, give it time
    Sorry ❤️

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    1. Thank you so much for commenting 💕 time heals all things, I guess. I’m thankful it’s coming to an end and that I didn’t lose thousands of dollars in the attempt to “be a good friend”

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      1. Yea, good riddance 💪

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  3. I would say your $530 was one of the best investments you could have made for your own well-being.

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    1. That’s such a good way to look at it. Your new perspective on it has actually really cheered me up. Thank you 😊 big hug 🫂

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      1. My pleasure Janet

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    2. Nice! Those relationships are exhausting and full of drama.

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  4. I understand this hurt. It has happened to me over and over again. I’ve finally learned if I’m going to give money, I will do so expecting it will never be repaid. It never is. 😞

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    1. Hurting on your behalf that your kindness has been so used, Michelle. It is such a tough lesson and one that has broken my trust. Like you, I will NEVER give a large sum of money away again unless I am 100% ok with losing it.

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      1. Setting boundaries up front is helpful, I.e. “I will lend you this money one time and expect it to be repaid by this date” or even using a written contract for repayment. They will know you are serious

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      2. Craig wrote out a date and we both signed it the 1st time. I am going to move forward and never LEND money again. I either have it to give freely…or not. I’ve gone about 13 years without any problems with money & friendships…Craig really brought a new challenge to the table. I lost. Huge. I learnt.

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  5. It sounds like you made all the right choices here and similar to a comment above, without this experience, you would not have had the opportunity to learn, grow, and be strong. You also now know that being able to say no is a strength and while it hurts, the sun still shines the next day. It also seems as if you have amazing support here. He wanted you on the phone so that he could leverage his charm and use your kindness to get his way. You stayed strong and diminished his influence. Great job and something that everyone can learn from. Stay strong and be proud.

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    1. Thank you sooo much, Tommy. Hearing from you means a lot to me.

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