Uneasy

I don’t think I’ve ever spent this length of time (about 2 years now) really, really overweight…like seriously obese. At most in the past, I’ve gotten to “chubby” when I’ve let myself go…but I’ve still managed to look cute, you know?

Now? I’m just plain damn UGLY.

I can’t stand to see pictures of myself. I hate how I look.

What’s infuriating is that it’s withing MY CONTROL to change this.

But I’m so addicted to fried, fatty foods that switching to healthy, wholesome foods and going for a walk every day seems as possible as flying to the moon. Or flying anywhere for that matter.

I’m so uneasy. So unsettled. So UNCOMFORTABLE in my own body.

This sucks.

2 responses to “Uneasy”

  1. You can’t imagine how much I feel this but I actually am fine with it now. I actually think I’m ok looking even with the extra fat (makes you look younger when you get older). I think it’s because I was never shamed by family who always called me beautiful, but only by outsiders (mostly horrible abusive teachers, people at work, and kids who obviously learnt it from adults in their lives).

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: