Panicked

I left work on Friday with a beautiful card of encouragement and love signed by everyone in my office, a little gift wrapped in flamingo paper (I’m hoping it’s a candle, I love candles) and hope in my heart that now I was going to get the rest and time to think and reset that I’d wanted ever since the day my Dad died.

I breathed out a big sigh of relief when I arrived home on Friday night.

I put on my pjs, smiled at our lovely (messy) home and thought all my worries had gone away – and if they hadn’t, I could deal with them in my own time in the weeks that followed.

That was all crushed yesterday (Saturday) when Mom facetimed me. She checked Dad’s bank account for his fortnightly pension payment and it was empty. It hadn’t been paid for the last month. Mom was in a panic as her Super payment wasn’t going to arrive for another week and she didn’t have any money. Like NONE.

My anxiety went through the roof.

I’ve just given up my job!!!

I don’t have much saved – just $500.00 – even that was hard for me to save, I’m not good at managing my finances. Of course I sent it all to Mom to keep her above water for the week before her Super payment comes.

So I’m down to ZERO and I don’t have a job.

FFS.

Praise God, Tamara from another Recruitment Agency texted me and a 3-week data input job is starting this Monday. I snapped it up so I have employment for the next 3 weeks at least. It buys me time to get something more permanent. Thank you, Father God.

My panic is in trying to do everything in my own strength. I can definitely not keep my Mom afloat on my own. I need some help.

I’ve emailed my local Government office to ask where I go to get Mom financial help and I’ll call Centrelink tomorrow on my lunch break and hope someone there can direct me. I’m praying and hoping Mom can have access to Dad’s Pension payments as they were (are?) married and they did offer pension payments for couples on their online service. I have Mom’s bank details and her phone number in Philippines so I’m hoping Centrelink can offer her SOMETHING to help her financially while she’s in the Philippines.

I honestly thought Dad’s pension payment would be about $250 a week or something? IT’S A THOUSAND DOLLARS A FORTNIGHT.

F*ck.

I cannot afford that on my own.

I’m having an anxiety attack trying to do this all on my own.

Published by janetdthomas77

I'm the person who will go into a burning building to save everyone. I'm also the person likely to have started the fire by leaving a stupid scented candle unattended or something, so...you know.

3 thoughts on “Panicked

  1. you re right to be concerned
    when i had heart failure in 2006 i knew
    my full time career was kaput
    i just could not do it anymore
    i was approved for ssdi which is rare
    and even with the so called green light
    i had to wait six months for any payment
    so i too had five hundred bucks
    and a kind sister
    my hopes for you are stellar
    please know you are never alone~

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    1. Thank you so much for reaching out to me and leaving a kind comment. I’m so glad you were eventually able to get financial assistance and so glad too for your generous sister xx

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