You might have noticed, but I’ve added a lot more blogs of late. I had an old blog on “Blogger” and closed it down to make this awesome one on WordPress instead, so over the last few days, I’ve been transferring my blogs from the old to the new site.
Something that’s got me is that my blogs used to be really sweet. Even when I was struggling, as you read them, you get the sense of someone good-natured and kind behind them. Someone innocent. Someone likeable and really lovely, actually. It’s funny because at the time, I was just pouring out my heart and hoping my best friends who read along with me would be more able to understand what I was going through.
I read back on them now and I wonder where that sweet girl went. I miss her.
All that’s left is an empty, jaded, hard shell.
I’m angry all the time. PISSED OFF. I swear now. I never used to. I’m physically tired ALL THE TIME now, too…and I’m blogging this to you today with a bandage on my left wrist because I sprained it 😦
This sucks, you guys.
I want to be that sweet girl again. I don’t want to be angry and jaded.
Is there a way to go back? Or is this it now?