My heart is breaking as I blog tonight.
I’ve gained a lot of weight and I look like sh*t.
Alun must agree because he won’t touch me. We haven’t had sex since last year.
I feel so hurt. I know I’m fat and unattractive, I know…but it hurts nonetheless.
I look in the mirror and I understand, I do. I wouldn’t want to see me naked, either.
I have to lose weight and adapt a healthy lifestyle.
But for tonight, I’ll curl up in bed and cry myself to sleep.